Relieft.

Just listening to this piece of music makes you feel calm, right?
Well, listening to this song makes me feel very happy and it makes me think of many great things :) Everyday I would listen to this song and sometimes I cry but crying makes me feel much better. I guess that's only me, haha.

It's time to cheer up, don't you think?

It's really great when you know you have people who really cares for you.
Those are the ones who can tell when you're sad.
They can also be the ones who give you advice and tells you to stay strong.
I'm very happy for that. Even though it's something stupid, they'll always be there for me <3 regrets ="/">

Fear strikes again.

I saw this coming. I really did.
But was it necessary for him to tell me all those details?
No. You didn't even have to give me the general idea.

But I should just suck it up since I told him I am fine. I'll just be a little jealous.
Aiyaaaa. That boy's got me staying up all night, just for him.
I know it's not worth it but I have too much expectations.

A couple of months ago, I wouldn't have minded anything.
I just knew we deserved each other.
But, does he deserve me? Should I really give myself to him?
No, no, no.

Okay, I'm going to stop thinking about him. So not worth my time right now.
.. Wow I just had to check myspace right now.
Fuck everything. This really shouldn't have happened.
I never wanted to fall in love. Bitch.

Now I am feeling miserable.
I hate you. I hate you. I hate you :(
But thanks, because you made me realize why I never bother to find a boyfriend.

This wasn't suppose to happen.......

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Enough of this stupid boy.

Okay well I originally planned to write a nice happy blog but I really can't.
Maybe tomorrow.

No solution to this equation.

We love each other.
But, it's not that simple.

I am improving. Can't he tell?
Apparently not. He has a blind spot. He doesn't see that I love him a lot.
Or, maybe it's because I don't show it that much.

Should I tell him that I can't get him off of my mind?
That he's all I think about? Even in my dreams, I have room for him.

When you're like this, I can't help but to stay up and wait for answers.
Sometime it's not worth the wait because I don't get my answer.
I sacrifice a lot of time and maybe even my parent's trust.

Maybe I don't want to get too attached to you.
If I do, I am afraid that I won't let go of you when something happens between us.
It's better for both of us.. Move on with our lives and wait three years.

Three years isn't so bad compared to ten years. It's already been 2 months.

I don't want either one of us to get hurt. Because, I know it will, someday.

He needs to understand that I want him, so bad.
And, I know he wants me too.

ily, K <3